Repetition

I'm almost speechless. You really can't be serious? We have been through exactly this scenario before and well; you know how that went. It's like history repeats in the stupidest of ways. You've broken my trust before, and after you did break my trust you felt like shit for a complete month or so. Yet still you have the heart to do it again? This time it hasn't just hurt me though, it's hurt someone else. Someone who doesn't need or deserve it.

You're un-fucking-believable. Get the fuck out of my life.

Losing

You lost everything; when I lost you. You've nothing left, not even a heart.

We got the feeling again. That good wholesome feeling my friend.

Room for two

I'll sit and wait for you. And the day you realise you were wrong you'll turn back around, by then I would have picked up the pieces of you and left.

Wishing you and yours a very Merry Christmas.

Shutter

Went shooting with madek the other night, got some decent long exposures. I'm loving it.

Laughs

I still wake up every morning, turn to the side and laugh in your face.

It makes me feel amazing, and this feeling has eluded me for the past two weeks or so. I feel absolutely amazing.

I guess thanks are in order.

For Her

Just put another band-aid over your scars of hurt. Just put another blanket over the doubt in your mind. Just contain your anger to words written over the internet. Just fill your ears with loud sounds to hide from the truth.

Just know that, the band-aid will fall off and the hurt will begin again.

Just know that, the blanket will never cover all of your doubt.

Just know that, your typed words don't compare verbally.

Just know that, even though you can't hear the truth, it's right there in front of you and you can see it.

Your hurt will never heal. Your doubt will never fade. Your anger will never be seen. Your truths will suffocate you.

That is, until you want them to.

Generally speaking

I guess I haven't really posted a general blog regarding my thoughts and how I am doing in quite a while.

I've bombarded my readers with an ensemble of crazy words and meaningful phrases, whilst I've thoroughly enjoyed writing these words. They have been for dignified purposes and purposes of which I don't like to dwell on all that much, but by expressing myself to you and letting my thoughts out through the use of words does help a lot. So thank you.

I, myself have been in and out of happiness, but the happiness has started to grow on me. I'd much rather the feeling of happiness and I guess it's starting to become a more frequent occurrence. A lot of things have changed recently, some for the best and some for the worst. All in all I've learned to accept these changes and what's come of them; evidently I've grown into a different person. A person that is a lot more tolerant to certain things and more accepting and respectful of others decisions.

I love the new me, you would to.

Never fading away.

A year to the day, still the memories of you never fade. I reminisce on your face day after day. I miss you, I miss you so much.

I miss it all.

Maybes

Maybe it's all just a bad dream that I'll awake from.

Maybe I don't want it to be true.

Maybe I'm having trouble accepting it.

Maybe It'll all pass over.

Maybe the promises you made were always lies.

Maybe I loved you. (You loved me).

Maybe you'll regret this decision.

Maybe you should fuck off and never come back to me again.

Maybe I'm just angry.