The lost desire

You don't want something to believe in, you need something to believe in.

The light that fades

You sit alone in your dark room, illuminated by your computer screen. You wait for that false hope that they'll say hello. Eventually, you'll lose the hope that you clutch so dearly and the darkness will consume the light. All hope will be lost; gradually all life will be lost.

This is the start of a new project im working on with vixxx, stay tuned for big advancements.

We all fall down

You try and try again. You fail and fail again.

You pick yourself up once more, obtaining a positive frame of mind. Yet, you still manage to find a way to fail and render yourself back into the same negativity that occurs with each turn down.

Your in a continuous pattern of failing, like walking sinking sand. Eventually your going to fall down.

One day, I'll sink through the sand and it will enclose me.

Buried for all eternity.

I knew

I use to know everything you did, every friend that walked in and out of your life - I knew about it.

I knew where you would be and when, I knew when I would be able to talk to you and when I wouldn't.

I knew you'd be there for when I needed you, and that I would do the exact same for you.

I knew we'd never see each other for more than a week at a time, but the weeks we did share together, were some of the best weeks of my teenage years.

I knew eventually we'd grow apart, its hard to have an amazing friendship when your nearly 2000km's apart.

We knew each others whole life's, every hurdle we've ever had to overcome.

I know your still there, and I'm still here for you. Although our communication is lacking at times, whenever I need you - you'll be there for me. Whenever you call on me to answer for you, I'll come running.

I miss what we had.

Projects

I'm working on a decent project, no idea when it will be completed. Hopefully not soon though...

Life is still lame, really do not want this year to end in anyway, hell I'd complete year 12 until the end of time if it meant I could keep the same friend base and security that I have now.

I am however feeling better then I was last week, which is a gradual improvement I guess.

Chill.

Needs and Wants

And I wanted you to ask if I was okay, actually I needed you to ask.

And I wanted you to say hello, I needed you to say hello.

And I never wanted you to leave, I needed you to stay.

All these wants; all these needs - im sitting here with one final need. Thats you, I need for you to be beside me, asking me if im okay, saying hello to me and staying right by my side.

River flows in you?

Behind these weary eyes lies a river. A river of tears - a river of hurt. The words you say to me (or rather, the words you don't say) they act like a remote control, releasing the flood gates and bursting open the river of hurt and the river seemingly flows freely. Disregarding the apologies you attempt to make, or your ability to make up for lost time. The river, the hurt that you've created, flows away freely into a dark oblivion.

I feel insecurity at the best of times.